Hello! So, I realize it’s been embarrassingly long without an update so I wanted to drop another quick note with some progress report:
As you may have guessed, I recently hit a major choke-point in the writeups. Basically, the early part of this year did not go well for me. Work was intense, with second-season teacher burnout building up on me fast but no reprieve in sight. Shit got real emotional here in America come mid-January and I found myself avoiding internet contact as much as I was avoiding talking to my family. On top of regular work I was trying to get some contract projects done because surprise-not-surprise, rent went up again. Then, to cap all this stress off, I had a semi-formal observation at work where it was subtly implied that everything I’ve been doing in my lesson plans is wrong and I need to start over.
The final match to this building powder-keg, though, came in mid-Feburary, when during one of our regular Vampire sessions, my computer rebooted midway through and we lost half a recording.
At this I absolutely crashed, screaming about the mess of my house and the mess of my life and practically threw my laptop halfway across the room. Eventually, everyone calmed me down and I basically bundled up to go to bed while everyone else stumbled through the remaining half of the night and Jason promised to jot down some notes on everything that was deleted.
But since then I’ve been in deep recovery. I’ve barely been writing anything creative, let alone Vampire, but I have been doing other things to recenter myself. We actually took a few weeks off of the game so I could get caught up on some other work. I’ve taken up some light meditation practice and have also been making a conscious effort to spend time in the evening reading books, instead of scrolling endlessly through news and social media. This past month has been insanely busy with work and volunteer obligations, but even with all of it, I think I’m getting back to a place where I can pick up again.
Because I want to finish this. I have to finish this. In my mind, there’s nothing more tragic than a story left half-told, especially one with so much love poured into it from multiple people. So I’ll figure something out. Maybe it will mean ratcheting my editing up past 11. Or, failing all else, maybe it’ll mean just posting the raw audio files for the sake of getting it done. We’ll see.
To end on a better note, I do have some good things to share:
- I am currently in the midst of another writing project with legitimate professional promise. It’s still in the early stages so I don’t want to jinx myself just yet, but hopefully if things work out, in the next month or two I’ll be announcing the details here, so stay tuned.
- In personal news, one of my roommates moved out and Jim moved in with me, so now I
have toget to look at his cocky squid-faced grin every damn day.
- In also-personal news, in my apparent on-going effort to Brujah-up and Be More Like Tom, I have purchased a motorcycle:
Don’t tell my mom.